I'm on a two-weeks break from college. I wish it's a going-to-the-beach-and-have-fun kind of break but that's not meant to be what with my AS examinations only a couple of weeks away. I wish to say that I'm hitting the textbooks in preparation for the coming exams but that's not the case either.

For the past two days, I've been watching TV, getting lost in the wonderful world of music, drifting off to sleep and doing God knows what else to waste the hours. It's a dreadful feeling, not studying when you're supposed to be; it's like not doing anything to prevent an imminent "preventable-only-if-you-do-something" death.

I blamed it on my not getting the acknowledgement-of-receipt card from UCAS; I was worried sick that my UCAS form had got lost in the mail; so much so that it hindered my ability to cramp facts-for-exams into my memory module. Aveena, who didn't receive hers either, called UCAS up yesterday. We were assured that our forms are with UCAS and that we'll soon receive the "welcome" letter. Big relief, that is (thanks a million, Aveena!).

Now that I've no worries occupying my mind, I should be able to sit still and concentrate on reading notes and what not. Problem is, I seem to have developed Attention Deficit Disorder; it's troubling that I have a concentration span of less than 5 minutes. My mind would somehow wanders from one point to another imperceptibly and I've to exercise will power to bring it back. I think it's my brain's way of rebelling against absorbing boring stuff; quite a character, that slab of grey matter I have residing between my ears.

At times like these, I can't help but feel that the idiots who came up with exams should burn in hell for all of eternality. Hmm, am being too harsh on the ancient Chinese emperors (they first used exams to determine who should be their right-hand men, court jesters and such); the real idiots who should suffer in the Lake of Fire are the ones who perpetuate this ancient system they euphemistically dubbed "examinations". Shouldn't we learn for knowledge sake? Why is it necessary that we be pitted against examinations that supposedly could tell who's dumb and who's smart? All things said, I've to get back to hitting the textbooks and try to keep my mind from wandering off to this pristine beach where I would read books I actually like under the palm trees.